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Sleepless Night

Tonight I am totally out of order due to this throbbing headache , non stop sneezing , sore throat fever and Body pain. Almost all the common sickness together. Tonight i am not able to sleep or even lie down cos of the difficulties i am facing . Some nights are never easy. Wondering how to make this night short.

Its so true that When we get sick all the negative energy flow inside our body as we are weak to fight against those. To be frank i feel so weak and lonely tonight.Never thought in any of these days i would be missing somethings in my life which i have ignored most for better. Yet i miss some days of my life where you made it beautiful, joyful and awesome.

Well there are people in everyone's life who make you feel better and who simply makes you smile .They are always there whether you need them or not. Somehow they make a great difference to your life , making you believe in little things that brings happiness to you. They are the special people in your life who would cross any barrier just to be with you. They are the people who make you forget all your worries and concentrate on good things that is happening in your life.When you get sick they are always there wishing you a good health and making you forget your sickness by cracking jokes or saying beautiful words that heal you. Such are sweet people in your life. They would always know what you are going through although you don't mention that.They just know like that. I know everyone of us have or would wish for a such a person who would be by your side through thick and thin.

I was One lucky person who just got her wish fulfilled. Yet i was not able to appreciate it openly thinking something might go wrong .Something really did go wrong for that i lost the spark of the magic.But hoping to get back those beautiful days. Thank you for spreading magic into this lonesome life.

Loosing the grip

I have been feeling blue for the past few days , few months. I wasn't worried about myself in the past year thinking that in the beginning of this year all my unknown feelings would be vanished. i acted normal until today i lost the grip..NO more i can hold it. I know i am releasing all this as anger which i should not do. Yet it is happening. I am sorry for causing you all troubles, for giving you pain which you don't deserve.Hoping you would forgive me for all my troubles.

"Wherever I may wander down the pathways of life, My cry to you, oh my Lord, is ‘guide me to light’

Totally ok

Yesterday i had a great time with few of my friends. After a long time we got to spend some time together for few hours recalling old school days and discussing about big dreams and changes. I had a great time. Yet there was something that disturbed me for a while. Somehow it was surprising. while teasing each other seeing the beautiful full moon my friend asked me about missing someone. I instantly replied i dont miss anyone. It may be hard to believe .yet its true.I dont have the feeling of missing anyone now. Maybe i became rockhearted .Its not that i don't care about any of my friends. But Somehow i m just adjsuted to the life where i don't miss anyone. Maybe i am lost in another world. This is not totally me. Maybe the new me.

My friend said that in everyone's life there comes a point where we love to be alone.It s human nature. I don't know whether he was kidding or not. Somehow i believe that statement is true.I used to call or text my friends whenever possible although not lot. I always keeps in touch. But now there is only one or two friends whom i text which is also very few times.Am i changed ?I wonder. I don't know the answer to those questions. But what i know is i do care about all of my friends. And love to spend some time together.

It is also true that i feel lonely among the crowds and i feel better when i am alone or with only few special friends.If this is wrong then ya i may be changed.Maybe this is the nature of Humans. I have seen such changes in many of my friends. It took time for them to be back to the real world. And this is the time i am facing such situation.I don't feel lonely . I have all you guys who make me feel lucky. yet I cant help it. It will take time. My dear friends if you feel i am not been me for the past few days or now don't be worried. THis is totally normal. I love you all . Thank you for being there always.

Happy new year...