Best Friends are very special people in our life. They are the first people we think of when we make plans or decisions. They are the first people we go to when we need someone to talk to. We would call them just to talk about nothing, or about the most important things in our life. A best friend would make us smile when we are sad. They would put all the efforts to bring a smile on our face. They give the best hugs in the world. They are the shoulder to cry on, because they care about us. In other words they would be ready to take a bullet for us because it would be hard for them to watch us get hurt. Every moment spent with them is exciting. We fight, cry, smile and make fun together. They will be reachable whenever the other needs them. In short they are almost two souls in one body.
This is what a best friend is like. I always wanted to have such a best friend in my life. From childhood onwards my search to find a best friend remained as a dream. When I met you I thought u would be the person whom I always wanted as a best friend. We have great moments of fun in our life. Though we are different in many things we became best friends during school days and after that. However the road was never easy. With you it was fun. Your bubbly and cheerful and exciting nature was a great help to me. My silence was broken and I felt the true happiness running through my nerves when I was with you. They were so many beautiful memories to cherish. However there were days when I was being neglected due to my silent nature, when u find people with whom u can enjoy. I was happy to see u happy. The best thing was you always realize the thing even though I didn’t say a single word. And then you just say sorry and make everything right. We were happy .And you were truly a great best friend.
The years passed by and our school days were over. Life began to change and with that our ship began to take different route. Everyone whom we know was proud of us. They see us still as how we were before. But u and I know everything is different now. Maybe it is because of the distance, maturity and life after school that changed everything. And mostly you have gone through a lot in your life for all you become to believe you are alone. And I know I couldn’t be there for you as I was so far.
There was a point in my life where I lost the trust I have on you. We share things with each other because of the trust. But when the thing we share between us is told to someone else it breaks the trust. I know you have talked about that with them. I just don’t know why. When they keep asking the question it really disturbs me. I share with you thinking that you will keep it in your heart. It doesn’t go that way. I never talked about any of your thing with others. Because I don’t want to lose your trust and since you are my best friend I don’t have to talk about your stuffs .It’s between us only. However I never complained and was as usual. Yet I lost the trust. Every time when I try to share something with you it comes to my mind and I just could not. May be this was the line that led us to different paths at one point of our life. But I tried to keep that aside thinking positive about it. I changed my perspective on that. You shared one important fact of my life with them, maybe hoping to get guidance on what was right on that situation. I know you just want to get idea on how to help me in the most difficult time of my life by giving the best option. Thinking all those I just forgot all about it.
May be I could not do much on it. And Today I am seeing a side of you which I have never seen before. Yet I am been silent. You complain that I didn’t do so and so. But yet you never think what you did. I don’t want to pin point every little thing. But I do think about it and it hurts. I know u can see what others show you. And you truly know I am not right for your best friend.
Today it was so hurtful when you said it doesn’t matter if I go or not. And when I told you to make things right you just said that you are not willing to do anything. I was surprised. I felt like I should let everything go. Because you do not need me anymore. Whether I stay or not it doesn’t matter to you. I should not be sad about those. I have lately felt that. Yet I don’t know why it is breaking my heart, why it is being a barrier to my work , why I keep thinking about it always , why I don’t feel like doing anything. Every single second now it keep spinning on my mind. It hurts so bad. But I can’t say anything on that .
I just pray to allah to make everything right. I do want us to be like before. I want to make everything right. So I will take every step I have to take to reach there.
I just want to say sorry If I ever hurt you. Hope things would change to better. And today I begin my first step towards making things right for us. Hope everything goes well. Because I want you to be a part of my life. I want us to share every little thing and be the best friends as always. I want to correct all the mistakes I have done when fulfilling the duty of friendship. Maybe everything became apart cos of me. So I will make everything right this time and never give a single space for you to feel that you are alone. I do love you and will always do.
